One more short one....

I SERIOUSLY feel like I can't walk this afternoon.  That mile walk/jog did a number on my body, better do it again tomorrow. LOL.  My dog likes it at least.  Maybe some better shoes would help as well.  Hey, an excuse to go shopping for shoes!!!  If I would have known I would have had my butt out there a LONG time ago!

Pre-op weigh in and class.

Well today was my pre-op weigh in and class.  Guess what the scale said.....?????? 248!! One more pound gone!  I had some blood work and peed in a cup and off to the class I went.  Hubs came with me and we were the only ones there so it was nice to have the one on one with the nurse.  They said I have the option to stay the night the day of surgery or not, I will wait and see how I feel then.
I was hoping to jog/walk a 5k in August (about 4-5 weeks post-op), but the nurse said I probably shouldn't be jogging, but walking would be okay.  What do you ladies think?  How long after surgery will I be able to get back into my work-out mode?

Speaking of working out, I do a 30 min work-out on my elliptical that burns about 500 calories.  I could probably go a little longer if I really wanted.  I tried jogging a full mile yesterday outside and I couldn't, not even CLOSE!  I would jog for a few min and then have to walk and just kept doing  that the whole mile.  How can I do a work-out on the elliptical that burns WAY more calories, but can't jog a mile?  It's weird to me. Guess I will just stick to the walking and elliptical since I can't jog the 5k anyway.

I am now getting even MORE excited for surgery.  Today kind of solidified the deal and I just can't wait for July20th to roll around!! It will be here before I know it!

BYOC!!

This comes from my post yesterday about me bragging that I can still wear the same earrings I wore in high school….got me to wondering…how many piercings do you have? (the ones you can tell us about anyway – *wink wink)
I have only 2, my ears. Boring I know.  I at some point in my life had a belly button and eyebrow, but that was short lived.  They never really healed.  I am going to get my nose pierced however....when I lose my first 50 pounds, only 40 more to go!  WHOOT!
2. I’m asking this one because I’m getting another tattoo soon…and even have plans to get one of a lizard – my little Draz – because this blog and you all have become a major part of my life. Anywhoozle – how many tattoos do you have? If you have none and wanted to get one – what would it be?

I have one right now....a butterfly on my left ankle.  I got it when I was 19.  Typical girl, first tattoo.  I AM going to get another one.....a BIG one when I lose my goal of 100 pounds, however and I can't wait!
3. If you’ve ever suffered from a weight-loss plateau, what’s your best advice to get past it?

I don't know yet.....haven't gotten that far in this journey.
4. This is a repeat. I liked last week’s challenge for BYOC and I saw a lot of people this week follow through on the promise they made last week. You pick one thing for just one day next week that you want to do….and mentally doing it for the one day can totally jump start more successes. And I feel like I can do anything for just one day. 

Just one day?  I will pick Monday and I am going to drink my water AND make sure I do my work out.  

5. Repeat *make someone a Superstar* question – what's your favorite blog or comment of the week?  There are SO many....I love reading your blogs.  I have to say I love reading http://dreamsofskinnyhighheels.blogspot.com/ .  I love honesty and humor, she certainly delivers both of these!  

Not much going on here...

Well, I had my psych evaluation on Monday and damn....that was long and weird.  The test took forever and the questions were CARAZY.  The psychiatrist said he thought I was going to do great and was very encouraging.  I have a my pre-op final weigh in on Tuesday this week and my pre-op nutrition  class as well.  I think my hubby is going to come with and this makes me very happy.  I am so lucky to have a partner that is supportive of this ENTIRE process in anyway I ask of him. (yes, I have to ask, because lets face it, men don't get it unless they are TOLD, at least my man.)  *hearts*  Okay....enough of that sappy crap....

I have been pretty lazy in my working out this week, but plan to get right back on the wagon on Monday.  I HAVE exercised but only 3 days....not my usual 5.

I still am not sure what NSV stands for but I think I have had a few....
I went to the chiropractor this week and also to get a massage and both the chiro and masseuse said...."wow...you look like  you have lost WAY more than 11 pounds"!!   These things are so nice to hear.  I just can't wait till I get my band and feel less hunger and hopefully it will keep coming off even faster!

Well I am off to get a new couch.  I am trying to get my house SUPER clean and organized before surgery so that hopefully it will stay semi decent while I am out of commission for a few days.  I almost feel like I am nesting, like before you have a baby.  It's funny....I told my husband the other day that the anticipation of being banded is very much like the anticipation of  a baby...or maybe I am just weird.  I guess it's time that I come up with a name for my "baby"....LOL!

Surgeon appt. on 06-17

I couldn't wait to blog about my appointment on Thursday, but have been super busy with the family.
I woke up the morning of the appointment and of course hopped on the scale, it said 249.  Ladies....I can't even think of the last time the scale said 249, at least 6 years....probably more.  I didn't get too excited because I wanted to wait and see what the scale said at the docs.  (I do know though that my scale and the docs scale are pretty close in their readings.)
SO... the nurse calls me back and I step on the scale....guess what it said.....249!!!!! Whoot!   I got teary.  The nurse finished up and off to the nutritionist I went, she said I was doing great and to continue what I was doing.  YAY!  Then it was time to see the doc, he was excited with my progress and said he would fix my hernia when he did the surgery and he would see me for surgery in a few weeks!  I can't believe it....I am really doing this.
It feels so great!  It feels good to be doing something good for MYSELF for a change.  I will lose my one hundred pounds, I will make it happen.  The band will help me, but in the end it's all ME.  I am a little bit of a control freak so the fact that I have the power to make this happen or not, kind of excites me!  I know there will be times  it will be a struggle, and the "honeymoon period" will wear off, but until then I am riding this out with a big smile on my face, and excitement in my heart.  I have my psych eval on Monday and that only takes a few days for them to get the results and then I just have to verify my insurance approval and I am set for July 20th!  They even said they may be able to squeeze me in earlier if a spot opens!  I can't tell you how good it feels to see all my hard work pay off.  The workouts that I despise, the food that cost more, the time it takes....it has all been worth it.  I feel great and I feel this process is VERY meant to be, good, bad and ugly. :)

WOW!

Guess what my scale said this morning?????????  250!! Holy shit!  I can't remember that last time the scale said that.  It was of course right upon awakening so we will see what the scale says tomorrow at the surgeons, but it still said 250!! WooooHooo!!

What is going on?

So for the last week I have been busting my ass and I have gained 1.5 pounds! WTF?  I worked out 5 days last week burning 300 calories each workout and skipped yesterday (explanation to follow), but I was right back at it today.  I see my surgeon on Thursday and wanted to be down my full 10 pounds and I don't think it is gonna happen now.  I will say that I know sometimes when you are working out you gain....muscle weighs more than fat...blah blah blah.  I also have my period right now and know that can cause a little gain as well.  I am just so frustrated that I am working so hard and have gained.  This is when I normally would give up, grab a bag of crap and a chocolate bar and go to town.  I WILL NOT DO THIS!  Will not.  I am just frustrated.

On another note....
I got my IUD inserted yesterday, thus no workout.  OUCHIE!  This was a little tough for me.  I got it taken out a year and a half ago because we wanted to try for another baby....no luck. I have PCOS and a lot of issues with fertility.  We did months of meds and monitoring and nothing.  This kind of jump started my lap band journey.  I NEED to get some weight off to get pregnant, bottom line.  The next baby will probably be the last and I want to enjoy the process of getting pregnant and enjoy the pregnancy.  I don't want to have to worry about high blood sugars or high blood pressure.  I want to enjoy it.  This of course it not my sole motivator, but definetely one of them.  It was tough for me to get th IUD put back in because it was a finalization of the fact that there will for sure be no more babies for the next 18 months.  I know in my mind that I can't get pregnant right after being banded, but my heart didn't make the connection till yesterday.   I feel better today, and am trying to focus on the positive....I am getting banded in ONE MONTH!! WOOT!  I can't wait, I really can't.  This has been a tough, but rewarding journey so far.  I can only imagine what the months to come will bring.

Wow! My hubby took the kids to play and the house is oddly quiet.  I think I will grab a book, go to the porch swing and relax away....oh wait....my house is a mess.  Maybe I should clean.....*sigh* It never ends does it? At least it will be a quiet cleaning!

10 Followers!!!

I now have 10 followers! So exciting! I love the support that goes on in this community.

I worked out yet again today....so proud.  I really can do this, I really can.  Not much else to say today just wanted to say thanks for the support!

Wow that is a short post!

3 days in a row!!!

I have worked out now three days in a row.  I despise it but will continue to do at least my half hour on the ellipitical (300 calories) 5 days a week.  I feel good!  I can do this....I can do this.....Ican do this.  

I went with a friend yesterday to watch her get a memorial tattoo for her boyfriend that was murdered a year ago.  I realized while sitting there and looking around that I REALLY want to get my nose pierced, and to do the tattoo that I have been talking about for forever so these are my goals and rewards....

1. First 50 pounds = nose pierced

2. Goal weight of 100 pounds lost = tattoo (I won't be so limited on where I want it because of my weight.)

I am really excited about these goals and this will definetly be a motivating thing for me.  Better go fill the pool up for the kiddos and throw some laundry in.  The work around here NEVER ends.  ;) 

Started off GREAT!!!!

Well I started off this week fantastically!  I ate about 1200 calories yesterday....actually a little less.  Worked out and burned 300 calories and today started off the day with a 30 min. workout and another 300 calories burned! I got some meal replacement bars and have been A LOT less hungry.  I ate one yesterday for breakfast and wasn't hungry for lunch until 3 or so.  I looked at the CLIFF bars but they are really high in carbs and I am trying to limit my carbs, as my body really doesn't like them.  I got the Special K Protein meal replacement bars and they are really yummy and lower in carbs and fat.  WHOOT WHOOT!!  Days like this keep me very motivated.  Now if I can just keep it up.  I am going to work on getting some pictures up this week as well.  Let's hope I can keep up this positive attitude!

I did have a small victory in my soul searching yesterday.....I have been trying to figure out what my issue is with food.  It's not that I don't feel I deserve to be healthy, it's just that sometimes I find it SO difficult to make good choices.  I know I should, I just don't.  Well, yesterday as I walked out of the house to go to a doctors appt. I took a huge breath of relief and realized that when my house is crazy and messy and things around me are chaotic I get overwhelmed and make bad choices.  I am not sure why I do this, but I really do.  I talked with my hubby about it and he is going to try and help me keep up on the house work and stuff and see if this theory is really true.  For some reason I view my house and it's condition as an extension of me.  I guess as a stay-at home-mom I have put that expectation on myself.
I am  hoping to start meeting with my therapist on a regular basis again and hopefully we can address this issue.  The way my life is and the condition of what is around me should not affect me so much.
Well off to make a protein shake and figure out some lunch for the kiddos!
Publish Post

Tough times...

I am finding it really hard these days to eat the things I NEED to be eating and NOT the things I shouldn't.  Things in my life have been a little stressful and I seem to have difficulty making good food choices when these things are going on.  I am very aware of this and then I feel guilty and want to eat crap food even more.  It's a vicious cycle.  I have also found that most people in my life could really care less about this struggle.  The people in my life that ARE supportive of this process are encouraging, but when it comes down to it....it is MY battle.  Why is this so hard for me?  *sigh*  I guess if I had an answer or an easy solution I wouldn't be sitting here weighing 250 pounds.  I don't have many followers, but those of you that are following, how do YOU do it?  Another thing I have been struggling with, is when I am eating "the right" things I am hungry.  Really hungry.  Not head hunger.... it's physical, I am going to be sick, I need to eat NOW hunger.  A friend suggested that maybe I wasn't getting enough carbs, as I have eliminated most carbs.  No bread, no rice, no potatoes, and no starchy veggies.  I try to eat fruit, but am not a big fruit eater.  I guess I will try a piece of toast with breakfast here and there and see if that helps.  Well, off to make lunch!  A nice healthy, good for you lunch.